Trigger Warning

Guest Post: Samantha SullivanPrologue by Katrina High With October being Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, I’ve had a yearning to post about the painful losses that are silently happening to women all around us, but didn’t know where to start. I’ve been through so much with my own infertility journey, but didn’t feel qualified, […]

Who We Are is in This Moment

“I miss who you were”. Someone told me this the other day, and I wasn’t quite sure how to take it. I know that it was said with good intentions, and I get it, because I miss my pain free, bubbly self too. But at the end of the day when one is diagnosed with […]

You Fooled Me Daylily

We have a ton of daylilies in the backyard. They all blossom effortlessly, year after year. All but one that is. I planted it 8 years ago, and it rarely ever EVER blooms. It is the biggest mound of lilies in the whole yard, but rarely actually flowers. I got it on sale at Lowe’s […]

Endometriosis Brought me Here

I just got home from my annual OB appointment and poured myself a giant glass of wine. The final chapter in my long ass book of infertility just got closed, and it wasn’t a doctor that closed it- it was me. I’m struggling a bit with letting that settle in. I still have scars on […]

A Constant State of Fight or Flight

Last week we found out our first (fur)baby has cancer, and this morning he was dropped off at the vet for surgery to remove multiple tumors. I’m a mess. I don’t know why I feel so embarrassed to say that it’s making me so emotional. He’s been in our lives almost as long as the […]

Infertility: A Disease Uncovered

Guest Post: Samantha Sullivan 80 million people worldwide are affected by an illness called infertility, (Tara M. Cousineau PhD. (Senior staff psychologist), 2007) despite that fact, there is very little public knowledge or awareness about it. 7.3 million women in the U.S. have sought treatment for infertility (Iris G. Insogna, 2018) but, for many reasons the […]

Retiring my Hope

This weekend I cleaned out all of Thea’s baby clothes. I was over the moon- they went to a lovely friend who has been trying to get pregnant with her own babe for a long time, and I’m so excited to pass these on to her. I’m elated to see her sweet baby girl in […]

Thanks, but I Didn’t Ask

Can someone please explain to me why the split second your first child leaves your womb, there’s a line of people out the door ready to bombard you with unsolicited advice? You have barely even decided what your own parenting style is going to be (let’s be real, there’s the style we thought we would […]

The Dreaded 2WW

If you are part of the IVF cool kids group, you know all about the dreaded “two week wait”. It should honestly be called the 500 year wait, because that is exactly what it feels like. Layer on the most insane anxiety you’ve ever had on top of a shit ton of hormones and a […]

The Heartache of When all of Your Firsts are also Your Lasts.

We changed Thea’s toddler bed out into a double bed last weekend and while it was exciting to see her so overjoyed, it was also excruciating for me. Why you ask? Because it was a milestone of motherhood that I’ll never get to experience again. Some of you know a lot about our struggle to […]